We met with the lovely Dr Calm this afternoon, and she was calm, and now I feel calm. She seemed a bit surprised that we'd been converted to an IUI, and seemed to indicate that she might have made a different decision. But in the end, we all agreed that we'd been given a reasonable choice, and that there was still a chance.
I was scared about asking her to advocate for us, but she actually offered to write a letter on our behalf to the shared risk folks. Whew.
Our next cycle will be estrogen priming, followed by Lupron Micro Flare (whoo hooo! fireworks in my ovaries). So this is going to take a fuck of a long time. If I'm not pregnant this cycle (which could still happen, right?), I'll stop the progesterone suppositories, I'll get my period. I'll pee on an OPK, 1/2 way through my luteal phase I'll take estrogen. When/if I get my period, I do lupron on like day 4 (or something like that), and then continue lupron, gonal F, menopur until the eggs come home to roost, and do my egg retrieval sometime near the end of May, or something. Ok, that part if fuzzy. Obviously the best result would be getting pregnant, but the second best result would be responding normally, getting all the way to ER and ET, and if I'm really being crazy, embryos to freeze.
Oh yeah, and a day or two ago, husband expressed a softening towards aiming for twins. Not that we can control it, but he was firmly in the 'if they are grade a, transfer only one' camp. The reality of this crap- shoot has hit both of us, and being too confident that it will work at all, or work twice, seems crazier than two babies.
Off to shove greasy capsules up my hoo ha.