In 5 hours, it will be time for my/our baby shower. Gifts have been arriving by post (of all sorts), all week, and thank you notes have been flying back out the door.
In the midst of all of the disruption and distress of last week, my family pulled together to support my mom in getting ready for the baby shower. I went over yesterday afternoon and lay on the couch while various members of my family shuffled through to visit with me. Luckily my mom lives less than 5 minutes away, so going to her couch to rest is within my treatment plan.
I've noticed wee wisps of magical thinking sneaking in over the last few days--fears that having a baby shower will somehow doom the pregnancy. Ugh. I hate those thoughts. And I know that's just what they are: thoughts, not predictions. And yet, the hyper-vigilance with which I check the TP or count the BH contractions shows me I'm still trying to control the outcome of this pregnancy by curtailing my own happiness.
So I'm not, curtailing my own happiness that is. I'm am happy, and excited, and really looking forward to my one and only baby shower, a day we have worked towards for 4 long years. It is so much more to me than a party to prepare for the boys, it's a celebration of our persistence, our love, and our resiliency.
Have a fabulous time - soak up every single minute of it!!!!!
Posted by: meinsideout | November 13, 2010 at 06:25 AM
Have a wonderful day. I am so excited for you.
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by: Debby Pucci | November 13, 2010 at 09:13 AM
Hope you're having a great time at your shower!
Posted by: a | November 13, 2010 at 11:33 AM
I hope your day is wonderful and that you can soak up all the memories :)
Posted by: Reese | November 13, 2010 at 12:41 PM
Hope your shower is wonderful and you enjoy every second of it!!
Posted by: Summer | November 13, 2010 at 12:45 PM
I hope our shower was fabulous!
Posted by: Sweet Georgia | November 13, 2010 at 02:47 PM
So exciting! I hope it was fantastic!!!!
Posted by: Rebecca | November 13, 2010 at 03:10 PM
SO much fun to see everyone there to celebrate with you! I hope you were able to soak it in and enjoy every moment! It was a strangely emotional time for me, too, since I had my shower at your mom's house, too, and was there today with my own twins. What a special time. What lucky people we are. You have so much coming to you-- I can't wait to see it!
Posted by: kate | November 13, 2010 at 09:45 PM
Wow! I Hope you had a fantastic time.
Posted by: Sara | November 15, 2010 at 06:06 AM
Hope you had a great time. I know it is hard with all the worry. Looking back I wished I had relaxed more. But knowing me...that wouldn't have been possible. :D Have fun sorting out all of the cute baby clothes and stuff!
Posted by: Brenda | November 15, 2010 at 12:11 PM
I hope your celebration was beautiful, fun, special and exactly what you hoped for. Look forward to hearing about it when you get a chance.
Posted by: Rebekah | November 15, 2010 at 08:37 PM