So I'm just over here, plugging away, being pregnant. Getting little whollps from each of the boys, and managing to keep the nutty anxiety to a minimum.
I had a little anxiety peak on Monday after talking with my cousin about the baby shower in November, which was after we'd spent a good portion of the weekend figuring out, actually buying some things for the babies room. It was really hot on Monday, and at our childbirth class I was suffering with puffy hands and feet (as was husband) and then the boys were not moving around (most likely sleeping) and I got myself all convinced that I had early onset pre-eclampsia and both the boys were dead. I got more and more tense as the night went on, and then when we got home I shook my belly a bunch, and as far as I could tell, both woke up. Also, husband gave me a much needed reality check.
The thing about magical thinking, is that it is nightmarish, and is never comforting. Ugh. So I didn't kill my babies by going to childbirth class, or getting things ready for their room, or by planning the baby shower. Shocking.
The most exciting thing that has happened is that I felt Stardust from the outside! I was dozing with my hands on my belly and I felt,what felt like a knuckle, sweep arcross my palm! It woke me up, and I sort of yelped! I'm sure it's going to get uncomfortable and all that, but I'm really going to miss having them bumping around inside of me.
I'm heading into the last four weeks of work, and boy am I glad. The work days are tiring, and it's hard to eat all I need to eat!
In terms of eating, I'm feeling pretty good about how I'm doing. I'm eating lots of lean protein and veggies and sweet potatoes, and some treats. What I've noticed about my digestion is that I am really thirsty at the beginning of the day, and drink a lot, and then by about 3 or 4, I can still eat, but drinking makes me feel pretty full and sloshy.
In terms of food aversion, I don't have any really strong ones, except to tomato sauce. I think it sauces that have a lot of wine in them or something. I can eat 'regular' pizza (like round table or something), but the fancy deep dish I usually love smells horrific to me, and a really lovely lasagna that a local food co-op makes, smells AWFUL. Thai food, not super appealing, but its ok. I'm really looking forward to the winter weather and all the homey, plain food that goes so well with winter.
Wow, 19 weeks!!! What an awesome milestone. I remember with my boys that I was so nervous for the first 6 months. I took a deep breath at 20 weeks, and an even deeper breath at 24 weeks. It sounds like things are going just wonderfully. I'm so happy for you!
Posted by: Brenda | September 30, 2010 at 07:27 PM
Congratulations on 19 weeks. It really is a magical time!
Posted by: Sweet Georgia | October 01, 2010 at 06:34 AM
the best thing about twin pregnancy is the food! I was told to have milkshakes! MILKSHAKES!! I remember toward the end all I could eat was peanut butter and jelly sandwiches which in normal life make me barf.
I know exactly how you are feeling about jinxing it all. If I have one regret of my pregnancy with the little ones its not enjoying it more. Easy to say, right?
I wish yo all the calming positive thoughts in the world.
Now, I have to go to weight watchers!
Posted by: EB | October 02, 2010 at 05:54 AM
This all sounds wonderful to me. Except the anxiety of course but even that sounds normal. You're really getting there.
Posted by: Paige | October 02, 2010 at 06:04 AM