I can't really post today. I have some posts brewing, but they all require me to really engage with my thoughts and feelings, and I just can't do that today. I blame my therapist--she took two weeks off and I don't have any room to move in here. Oy.
Sneak Preview:
-Being depressed is, depressing.
-All the donors I've viewed are all wrong, because they aren't me. It turns out I think I 'm perfect. Ha!
-It feels like I have a terminal disease and I'm trying to find a replacement wife for my husband. Ick.
-I would have never qualified to be a donor--I'm too crazy.
-Thank god I am not trying to adopt (at this point), again, I'm probably too crazy to get picked by a birth mother.
Please bear with me, and check back soon. I promise to write a real post.
I think this is a real post! thanks for the preview - look forward to reading the fleshed out version soon. Happy New Year!
Mo
www.lifeandloveinthepetridish.blogspot.com
Posted by: Mo | December 31, 2008 at 11:51 AM
I enjoyed the preview and I hope you find the time and energy to write again soon.
Posted by: Rachel | December 31, 2008 at 07:03 PM
Oh, it sounds like you are working things out at your own pace. I´m sure things will fall into place-eventually. xo
Posted by: Eva | January 01, 2009 at 06:09 AM
Hay you,
Missed you, first thing i did on tin-ternet when i got home was check in hear:)
Lets all get together soon xxxxxx
Karen xxxxxx
Posted by: karen oakley | January 01, 2009 at 08:46 AM
Donor selection is HARD. Just really hard and creepy. Once I committed I found it easier. I just jumped in with the faith that it would be ok. So far so good. But I'm only 9 weeks pregnant. We've still got a long way to go (18 years or so).
Posted by: Peeveme | January 06, 2009 at 12:26 PM
BTW thanks for the really wonderful comment on my blog the other day.
Posted by: Peeveme | January 06, 2009 at 12:34 PM
http://missionimpossibleinfertile.wordpress.com/2009/01/07/botw-edition-6/
:)
For you.
Posted by: Geohde | January 06, 2009 at 10:02 PM
I have to agree - being depressed is depressing. I think the realization of that is what makes non-clinically depressed people not become clinically depressed people. Oh, and recognizing craziness just means that you're not that crazy!
Being depressed also is boring.
Anyway, back to reading your story...
Posted by: a | January 07, 2009 at 06:58 AM
Coming over from MII's introduction, I hear what your feeling and felt similiar when looking for a surro, but, now am happy to be working with the most amazing woman, so good things can come, just a little hope for you.
Posted by: duck | January 07, 2009 at 04:12 PM