It's been a while since I posted, I hope no one was worried. Lots has been happening, all of if it positive, aside from a bit of brown spotting on Saturday, but I am not allowed to worry about that.
I have been really surprised at how 'sensation filled' pregnancy is, even at almost 8 weeks. I had an idea, not articulated of course, that I would get pregnant, be happy, wait to feel movement in the second trimester, and then get uncomfortable in the third trimester, and then feel labor pains etc.
Not so much.
There are cramps, little ones and big ones (one that was pretty intense on Friday, and probably the reason for the spotting on Saturday). As a mostly non cramping menstruater, this is vexing to me. I have to work really hard to not assign a worrisome meaning to every twinge.
And then there is the, uh, shall we say, engorgement and enlargement of the girl parts.
Last Monday I was sure I'd pulled a ligament on one side. I even went to the Chiropractor, because my groin felt a lettle odd. Chiro was helpful, but the odd sensation stayed, and then showed up on the other side and the distinct feeling of, shall we say, puffiness of the pu.bic area (front, not undercarriage) seems to have appeared. The sensations have abated, but the increased size has stayed.
Not to mention the weird nipp.le excretions, and the perpetually swollen look of the nips themselves.
Oh,and Friday I had my vanity handed to me on a platter: I have already begun to experience the dry eyes of pregnancy, and my left eye is looking like it has smoked a lot of ree.fer because it is so dry my contact lens is irritating the bejesus out of it. The eye doctor strongly recommends limiting the wearing of contact lenses. Ouch. As a life long (first grader that is) glasses wearer, I have the internal dork feelings whenever I wear them out of the house. Not so helpful.
On Friday I also got the news that I could stop taking the estrodial--level was around 3000, so no more blue goo for me!
Yeesh, Friday was a big day! I also....bought pregnant pants. With a panel and everything. A good friend, and mother of two, strongly recommended I buy a few good pieces I could wear a lot and not dork around with buying larger non-pregnant pants. Overall, the cost is lower to just buy the maternity pants. I got: jeans, 2 skirts, and these t-shirts. The other shirts are too long at this point...and some maternity undies. I wore the undies last night,and they were muy comfy.
Of course, the next morning when I woke up to the spotting, I had a moment of magical thinking and thought "I shouldn't have bought those maternity clothes!" and then I reminded myself that maternity clothing (i.e. hope) does not cause miscarriage. Overall, it is the fear of the sadness I would feel if I did miscarry, and then came across these clothes and all it meant to finally buy them. But you know what, I am actually a tough cookie, and I could put them out of sight, and bear the sadness, and use them later. However that is NOT necessary. I just needed to replace the fantasy, ya know?
Today I am wiped. I spent the better part of yesterday making three one layer cakes for a party (I love to have a big project like that!), fully falling apart on the couch in the afternoon (crampy/sleepy, but got to cuddle with my lightest and most skittish kitty), and then had some rockin' pulled pork and slaw sandwiches at the party.
Husband is working away, sometimes swearing at the computer. We're out of milk, eggs and all the stuff that makes the pantry staples turn into meals.
I just want a burrito, but I'm trying to economize. Yeesh we ate out so much during the IVF and aftermath. Maybe I'll have the burrito anyway...
Baby wants a burrito?
Or
Baby wants a college education?
:)
FWIW, the appearance does take more of a bashing by the third tri. Judging by the fact that a friend I haven't seen in 15 weeks burst into hysterical laughter at the sight of me yesterday, anyway!
Hope the spotting's nothing serious.
J
Posted by: Geohde | June 29, 2008 at 04:36 PM
OK - so I already knew pregnancy pants were awesome, but I also started wearing pregnancy undies last week. OMG. I'm in love.
You are sounding great! Glad everything is going well!
Posted by: Cece | June 30, 2008 at 11:20 AM