Sorry if I was unclear last night--I was in a lather.
The "Hell No!" was that we weren't going to share, AND we weren't going to lose her again.
I got confirmation this morning, she's ours! Last BCP on Thursday morning, auntie flo for 5 or 7 days or whatever and then were off to the races.
I'm feeling relieved, and a few glimmers of excitement, but I still feel a bit raw and sad and not quite up to feeling like this is somesort of message from the 'Universe'. We are so lucky to have this option.