I think it is hard to post from this limbo because for me, posting is so often about working through, or making choices, and at the moment, I find myself in a fertility/mothering moratorium. I mean that in the strictest identity development sort of way: trying on different identities, without making any commitments. I've been trying on the DE baby mama identity, the "Finally pregnant on the last IVF" identity, the...gasp...childless Pilates devotee identity, the fierce worker bee identity, and last but not least the "I have no idea with the next 45 years will be like" identity. All feel equally as interested in all of them at the moment. I know that the childless one isn't going to happen, but it feels to me like whatever the next step is, being able to try that one on frees me in a way that not trying it on won't. Kapish?
I may not be around much this month. This is my last month until I step back onto the platform to catch that train to Crazyville, and frankly I'm gonna enjoy the heck out of it.