Ok, so I've been taking a break and it's been going pretty well...shocking. Not concentrating on IVF and the lack of a baby in my ute, has been a relief and easier than I thought.
I had my FSH and E2 level checked on Tuesday (I got there when the lab opened so I wouldn't miss the inauguration!), and yesterday my lovely IVF nurse emailed to say that it was 8.0!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know that doesn't mean that everything will work out, but after two months of successively higher numbers, it was nice to see it bounce down, and further down than it was in September. I can't remember what it was in May (when I got pregnant), but a downward bounce made may day. I'd like to believe it is the DHEA, but really there is no way to know.
And the South B.each diet isn't too bad. I'd like some bread something feirce, but I think the reason I eat a lot of extra carbs is to deal with mild constant heartburn. Pril.osec to the rescue.
We will be trying this month, and I did do two OPK's this morning (I do the machine and Answer OPK's), and I'm thinking I'll take baby aspirin, just in case it would help. Why not, eh?
Also, my friend Kate (who has been the catalyst for me understanding my envy which has resulted in a lot of personal growth over the last few months), got the all clear yesterday: her identical twin girls are healthy and thriving, and now she can get down to the business of getting excited about them. There is still Twin to Twin Transfusion syndrome to track, but that is fixable, so let's get the party started.
I surprised myself at how thoroughly overjoyed I am for her (them, her husband is also awesome, and not to be forgotten). I actually sent her an email this morning asking if she'd allow me to host a baby shower. I know. Such growth. But I really want to. I really want to be a part of their children's lives, and I don't want infertility to rob me of any more love. So it's not over, I'm not done being sad, envious or flummoxed by infertility, but damn, it felt good to really want to do this for her.
And how are you?