Ok, so one of them took pity on us in the last 24 hours and saw fit to divide into 4 cells. That is really not great, but it means we keep it in the medium and see what it is doing tomorrow. We even get a special report because normal 4 day embryos look like undifferentiated blobs, but given the laggardness of this entity, we do want to know if it progressed beyond today's 4 cells.
Although this is sort of nice, ti is also really confusing. It's hard to know which set of feelings to go with: the faint hope it might turn into something to transfer, or the wish that it stalls and this cluster-fuck can just be over.
Today I am going to make some yummy cookies, go Christmas shopping in the rain with my husband, and keep one foot going in front of the other.